Lost

One of my friends hit it right on the head the other day.

'Still feeling lost, sweetie?' he asked.

I do feel as if I've lost my way. More accurately, I'm having a hard time remembering what the way even looks like.

Actually, I'm having a hard time figuring out whether I'm depressed, wallowing in self-pity, or just experiencing some delayed grieving. I did sort of bypass mourning the end of my marriage to Dear Husband, although I tried hard to experience the emotions as they came my way.

It's time to find a new way, and I don't even know where to start. I'm stuck in a rut so deep that I can't even see the sky.